The modern understanding is actually that sexuality falls on to more of a three-dimensional graph, with axes of physical attraction, emotional attraction and gender. The reason why I decided to pen down this confession is because I recently read the enlightening views of Indulekshmi Rajeswari. In her coming out story, she writes: With women, you have to wine and dine them. It’s a lot easier to get laid with men than it is to score with women. Nothing less.Īs to why I have sex with other men, the reason is simple. I will just think to myself ‘ This guy is handsome‘ and that’s it. And even if I find a dude really good-looking, I don’t start drooling over him. In terms of physical attraction to other men, I’m pretty limited in that area too. Nor have I ever even developed the slightest bit of romantic feelings for another guy.
I’ve never had a crush on another dude before. The main reason why I don’t consider myself gay or bi is because I have zero emotional attraction to other men. But after a lot of self-reflection, I identify myself as a heterosexual man. I would be lying if I said I’ve never questioned my sexuality before. Over time, I started experimenting with anal sex as well (I always topped) but most of the time, I mostly preferred to be at the receiving end of a blowjob.
I was amazed at how easy it was for gay men to get laid so every time I got horny, I would hook up with someone on Grindr. I downloaded Grindr and before I knew it, this random gay stranger was blowing me at his house. I was going through a 4-month long dry spell when it just randomly hit me to get off with another man to cure my blue balls. When the relationship ended, I suddenly had no one to relieve me of my sexual desires anymore. We were together for almost a year and during that period, we had loads of sex. I had just gotten out of a relationship with my second ex-girlfriend. It wasn’t until 7 years later that I had my next homosexual experience. It was a one-time experience and that was that. It was an incredibly surreal experience but neither of us talked about it or did anything remotely sexual with one another after that. One thing led to another and soon, we were 69-ing each other. I’m not sure what made me do it but I was the one who suggested we jerk each other off. That definitely caught Alex’s attention and while he had this incredibly shocked expression on his face at first, he didn’t say anything and after a while, he too started wanking in the open. I got so horny I decided to just take out my erection from my pants and I started masturbating in the open. I was slightly surprised but I didn’t make much of a fuss and I too started rubbing my hard-on. While the porn was playing, Alex started rubbing his erection through his pants which was something none of us ever did before. We got bored with doing homework and I suggested we watch some porn instead as a break. Sourceīut one time after school, it was just Alex and me chilling at his place. It was very much like a bunch of dudes watching soccer together. There was nothing homosexual about the experience. We would just crowd around the computer and pass comments while the porn was playing. We would head to *Alex’s house and 4 or 5 of us would crowd around the computer to watch porn together. My clique and I used to watch porn together after school. I went to an all-boys secondary school and as you can imagine, we were all perpetually horny. The first time I ever had sex with another guy was when I was 15. But as much as I enjoy the company of the opposite sex, I also don’t mind getting off with other men. I’ve had 3 ex-girlfriends before, all of whom I’ve been incredibly physically and emotionally attracted to. Before the rainbow flag waving gay activists start denouncing me as a closeted gay man who is in denial, please hear me out first before you jump to that superficial conclusion.įirst and foremost, I’m a 26-year old man who really likes women. Although I frequently have sex with other men, I would consider myself straight.